Yesterday, in a coffee shop in a town in a faraway land, I met a Jesuit priest.
While drinking a capuccino latte and eating a sugar-coated cinammon doughnut, I made my one and only confession.
I confessed that I was not a catholic, that I did not know the meaning of the word, that I believed in the notion of God but not the Christian one which affiliated with Jesus as its figurehead.
Years ago, I watched ‘The Mission’ and only last week I watched ‘Silence’, directed by American Martin Scorcese.
As I understand it, the essence of both films was that a soldier of Jesus Christ, defined as a Jesuit, should go to a foreign land and spread the gospel of the Christian faith.
Or do I mean the catholic faith?
Why is it that I spell Christian with a capital letter and catholic without?
I became intrigued to learn that the supreme head of the catholic church, the Roman Pontiff himself, the Pope, elected to that position in March 2013, was a Jesuit priest.
There was a wry smile and a short shriek of laughter from the Jesuit priest sitting in my presence.
The sudden clasp of our hands and looking into each other’s eyes was a touching moment of unforgettable silence.
As I now know, the Jesuit priesthood was a religious order formed in 1534 by a Spanish soldier by the name of Ignatius Loyola.
To become a Jesuit priest, the man told me, entailed the taking of vows of poverty, chastity and obedience for a lifetime.
Jesuits, like Franciscans, Dominicans, Benedictines and other such religious orders, are not attached to a diocesan parish church like their secular brothers. Nor are they accountable to bishops.
Jesuits are licensed by the Pope himself to spread the gospel, so to speak.
Forgive the abrasiveness of my thinking but I must stand to question the need at all to evangelize and apostasize in the twenty-first century to a seemingly well-educated, science-orientated, objective-thinking global populus.
And what is apostasy if it is not to be defiant based on rational opinion or belief about a system, authority or situation perceived to be different?
I could see all too clearly in the eyes of the Jesuit priest that he had abandoned nothing or no one in his absolute determination of human faith.
He was no defector, no deserter, no whistleblower, no rebel, no mutineer, no betrayer of his nation state.
There are, of course, pockets of civilisation in underdeveloped countries but I am not dissuaded from thinking that the Jesuit Priest is overstepping the boundaries of his mission.
So why does he sit before me?
And why do I sit with him?
It was I who traced him on the internet by social media. It was I who requested the meeting taking place between us today.
This is a Jesuit priest of the twenty first century who has a smartphone at his fingertips, an online presence, wears a baseball cap and can speak seven languages fluently.
This is my confession.
His mission has taken on a different sphere, a bit like an astronaut going into space to explore the unknown, the universe.
Yes, that is it. Catholicism means Universal.
Except there are those Christians in the world who have declared themselves to be protestants, lutherans, anglicans, prestbyterians, orthodox.
Today is actually Sunday Twenty-Third of April.
The Jesuit Priest knows it is the celebrated birthday of William Shakespeare, the English playwright who came from the town of Stratford upon Avon.
He takes the words right out of my mouth when he refers to the harbouring of Jesuit priests in the Shakespeare family home by William’s father John and the hiding of the sacred Borromeo testament.
He has never been to England but I hail from that town and I have so many times been to the famous cottage on Henley Street where the events he vividly described supposedly took place.
His ‘take’ on the historical events were different from mine but it mattered not.
Once a lawyer, I am now an English teacher and I have a mission in my life too to teach students the English language so that they can, possibly, have a better, brighter future.
The mission of the Jesuit Priest and the English teacher, it seems, though not fused, is therefore linked and the same. To deliver a message.
The charming young waitress serves us both a second (free) cup of coffee. I take another bite of my delicious doughnut.
The clock on the huge white church which shadows the square strikes eleven on this April Sunday morning.
The hearty congregation disperse into the environs of this northern Indonesian coastal city.
Sunday school, alas, was a long time ago in my life but suddenly I am reminded that catechism, another word I did not fully understand, is no more than explaining belief as a compilation of doctrine and teachings.
It always remains open to question but I have got the message.
What we nearly all accept today is that there are many different intepretations of faith besides our own and we should not be so stubborn or short-sighted as to believe that ours is the only way.
Not today. Not any day. Not any way.
The Jesuit priest has heard my confession.
There was no farewell. No selfie. No bill of conscience.
My soul can be at peace because, now, today, I know the truth.